Ice Shelves Shift

I find myself enamored with two different girls at the moment.
One I told I really liked and now she seems to be playing her "taking it easy" card. We talk, we make plans, but everything seems to be on her terms.

The other girl, I don't think realizes I have found myself thinking about her, wanting to spend more and more time with her. We started hanging out when I moved to Portland, under the guise that I was looking to build a foundation of a circle of friends. Then I began to realize we have a lot in common. And that she's a great girl that I kind of want to see where things go.
But like in typical Sean Fashion-- my nerves make me afraid to speak what's on my mind, for fear of rejection, for fear of screwing up a good thing right now with a good friend.

So what do to? Bite my tongue and fight off unrequited love yet again?
Or speak now?

I wish Taylor Swift didn't seem to be singing directly to me, and that her lyrical content wasn't a transcript of my life.

On a side note-- I'm trying hard to stay busy while in Portland now, but I do find myself fucking exhausted during the week, but I want to take advantage of everything Portland has to offer...keep my circle of friends large, you know, for options when it comes time to choose an activity.

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